My day

today was great compared to the fiasco I created for myself yesterday! I hope it reflects on the scale tomorrow but, I am not holding my breathe as I am sure the repercussion's from yesterday are still headed my way. But, my eating today just shows me that I can do it! I know I can do it.

4/30/10 FOOD

Fri, Apr 30 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Lipton Diet Green Tea with Citrus 480 0
Diet Coke - regular size 100 0
Breakfast
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 107 168
Lunch
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
Kosher Dill Spears Pickles 56 10
Classic Yellow - Mustard 100 0
Slices American Slices - Twin PK 32 ct C- 18 60
Snacks
Lettuce, Cos Or Romaine - Raw A 28 5
Lettuce, Cos Or Romaine - Raw A 10 2
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
Ground Beef 210
Slices American Slices - Twin PK 32 ct C- 18 60
Total Calories Consumed 595
Total Carbs 11.3

I wish

that yesterday had never happened! I have never really had a binge before.
Ok, this is what happened, doing great took my sis in law to lunch and chose to have a grilled BBQ salad at Chili's because I am trying to do low carb and make healthy choices. Went to the movies and did not have popcorn. Came home and calculated my 1 salad and it was 1060 calories and 50 carbs! I was pissed, it's like i try so hard to make good choices and it bites me in the ass! So, I went off and pretty much ate exactly what I felt like and you can see the results below. It was horrible and I feel horrible!!! My tummy is telling me this morning that it is not happy with me. I am not happy with me either! But, I am not just going to keep eating and eating and balloon up. I am 2 lbs heavier this morning 170, and truthfully I expected worse. Maybe it will be worse tomorrow I don't know. But, today is going to be around a 500 calorie day. I have to, I have to nip this crap in the bud and get my life back!

4/29/10 FOOD

Thu, Apr 29 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Bud Light Beer 710 220
Whiskey - 40% Volume 25 56
Red Hot - Snack Products C 28 140
Lunch
Chili's grilled BBQ Chicken salad 1,060
Dinner
Whopper With Cheese - Flame-Broiled Burgers D+ 315 760
French Fries, Large (Salted) - Side Orders D+ 160 500
Snacks
Cupcakes Chocolate C- 50 180
Chunky Snack Size 78 400
Tortilla Chips B- 28 137
Tillamook Cheddar D+ 84 360
Chili's Kids Pizza 170
Total Calories Consumed 3,983
Total Carbs 303

Going back to bed for a bit...

sometimes when I get up again, I am down a pound or so. I am hoping that will be the case today so that I do not feel so lame.

I am getting...

a bit frustrated. This morning I am up by 1 pound! What the deuce am I doing wrong? So, I am at 169, which was my first goal weight. I am never going to make my goal by summer if the scale decides to go up instead! But, I have a sneaking suspicion what the culprit may be! Alcohol! The atkins web says alcohol may slow down weight-loss. My plan: If alcohol is going to inhibit my weight-loss then out it goes, I don't need the dang stuff! I am sure I will give in once in a while but as a rule now I am going to keep away. Also last night my hubby did not get home till late and I had made him a steak, and I nibbled on it at around 9 p.m., way too late! It was very good and low-carb but, way too late!

Freaking cute

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For some reason...

Girls in Jeans inspire me.

54 Days left till summer!

So, I need to lose right around 3 lbs per week to get to my goal weight of 145 by June 20, 2010. Can it be done? I think it can on low-carb and watching my calorie intake! I have been feeling really weak food-wise today. Although, I have not given in... for some reason I still feel bad about myself. Today I feel like I have lost 20 lbs and have barely made a dent in my fat body which is sad. It makes this task seem much more daunting. But, I am not going to give up! Where does giving up get me? Back to my old fatter self, low self-esteem and much self-hatred. I don't want that. I would rather be miserable and thinner than miserable and not trying at all.

Rant

1. I want a Kit Kat so badly right now. They are just sitting there in the living room! (Not gonna though)
2. I have been really hungry today and I hope eating around 1200 calories is not gonna screw me up!
3. Heidi Montag's face does look super weird. I just saw it for the 1st time today on The Hills. I mean her body looks cool but, I like her old face.
4. Olivia on The City is such a ridiculous non-hardworking socialite with no skills! I could do the job at Elle!
5. I have a headache.

I...

upped my calories today to see if that would boost my weight loss! Sounds counter-productive but, I do not think I have been eating enough calories. I really should not go under 1000.

4/28/10 FOOD

Wed, Apr 28 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Whiskey - 40% Volume 53 118
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Breakfast
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 104 163
Wieners Beef Franks D- 34 111
Dinner
Lettuce, Cos Or Romaine - Raw A 28 5
American Singles - Sandwich Cheese C- 19 60
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
Snacks
Pork Rinds - Other Snacks 14 90
Wieners Beef Franks D- 45 147
Pork Rinds - Other Snacks 25 161
Total Calories Consumed 1,120
Total Carbs 13.7

4/27/10 FOOD

Tue, Apr 27 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Breakfast
Coffee (Filter) 237 2
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 15 15
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 153 240
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 22 110
Lunch
Asparagus Stir Fry A 91 25
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 120 198
Snacks
Original Pork Rinds D- 20 114
Total Calories Consumed 800
Total Carbs 10.2

Dam

I finally weighed in this morning and... I was 2 lbs heavier than the last time I weighed in which was last Saturday! Ugh, I am back to 168 which I know is really nothing and I have still lost weight. I just had my heart set on the same weight or 1 pound lighter. Oh well, it just goes to show you what a weekend of completely slacking off can do and it is not worth it! It is 3 days later and I am still feeling the effects! Well, no more! But, I am not going to give up! I do not want to get back up in weight and that is exactly what will happen if I give up. I only ate 800 cals yesterday. I think I will bump it up to around 1000 today.

Cute Swimmie

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55 Days to go till Summer!!!

That is only 7.85 Weeks, 1320 Hours ticking away minute by minute. Wouldn't it be cool if our weight ticked away like time? Like, if every minute you were a few ounces lighter? I guess it is kinda like that but, I wish it was more predictable like time. It would be amazing if you could count on being lighter.

Rachel McAdams

Gwen Stefani

I know everyone is all into GAGA and I love her but,

Gwen is so awesome!

I really, really

want to weigh today! But, I told myself that I would not weigh until Wednesday morning, so that is only one more day. I have to be strong! I can do this. Anyway's it means I could have a big loss on the scale so, this way I will have a great morning tomorrow, I hope. There is always that chance that it is going to suck but, I do not find this likely.

Must have a lil' thinspo

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4/26/10 FOOD

Mon, Apr 26 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Breakfast
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Lunch
Beef Franks - Oscar Mayer Hot Dogs 45 140
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 61 96
Lettuce, Cos Or Romaine - Raw A 28 5
Singles American Slices - 12 ct C- 19 60
Classic Yellow - Mustard 100 0
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
Roma Tomatoes - Salad Bar 100 10
Dinner
Shrimp 205
Asparagus Stir Fry A 182 50
Total Calories Consumed 831
Total Carbs 23

Beer

Yep, I am having a low-carb one right now but, it tastes good and I have not eaten that much today. I am proud of myself for starting right back up today. I was afraid I would be hungry after eating way over my normal range but, I am not. I am suprised and thankful about that. I have kind of put the weekend out of my mind and am just picking up where I left off. This is so unusual for me, I usually get way down on myself and give up. Could this be a change of behavior? I hope so! Change is hard but, I love when I can see changes develop. I wonder if it is change due to my eating habits or due to maturing with age? Who cares right?

56 more days till Summer!!!

Ugh, looking at that I am really afraid to weigh after this last weekend! But, right back on the horse and now I feel like I can withstand that temptation again because I did not feel good and... The repercussion's last for days! No More!!!

Okay...

so this past weekend was a bust when it came to eating. I did great on Friday and 1/2 of Saturday, then I had a friend come over and bring beer (no biggie) then she wanted to go eat (which did sound good) I did not have a an intention of eating very badly but a Margarita sounded sooooo good. I got one of those, and then I was like "what the heck, I want to live a little" I had a sample tray of Mozzarella sticks, boneless buffalo wings, criss cut fries, and chicken quesadilla's. I shared them with my child but, I went home and tried to add up all my calories and carbs and I stopped at 2600 calories and 260 carbs! Can you believe that? I was mortified to see that many cal's & carbs in print. Um, eating like that is not living!!! I am bloated and my stomach hurts. My friend (whom is very overweight) said "oh, just reward yourself with this", I said "I don't reward myself with food"
So, I have felt guilty, because I also ate badly the next day with my husband. I only ate once, but it was a lot of carbs. But, I am back today! I am not weighing myself till Wednesday. I am feeling frustrated at myself and I think if I weigh I will get even more down at myself right now, and it may work the wrong way for me. I don't want to give up! And, not weighing in for the next couple days makes me feel not as obsessed with weighing as I was feeling. So, I cross my fingers for Wednesday.

Tonight

I thought I would live a little and have some of my old food. I ate some Chicken quesadilla, mozzarella sticks, criss cutt fries, boneless buffalo wings & a margarita. I admit, it did taste good at the time but now I am sitting here and feeling bloated and full. I thought I wanted it but, now I know that I do not need that crap.

Damage... It is

I ate quite a bit tonight. It was by choice. I am going to get right back on the bandwagon tonorrow! I wanna see what this does to my metabolism.

Sat, Apr 24 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Breakfast
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Scrambled C+ 153 256
Lunch
shrimp 154
Asparagus Stir Fry A 109 30
Butter - With Salt F 5 36
Dinner
Boneless Buffalo Wings appetizer - (without dressing) 200 332
CrissCut Fries - LW Private Reserve B- 200 320
Mozzarella Sticks C- 112 355
Chicken Quesadilla appetizer 100 225
Margarita - Drinks A 510 750
Snacks
Original Pork Rinds 14 74
Total Calories Consumed 2,566
Total Carb 259

Down today...

A pound that is!!! Yahoooo, guess I have not hit my plateau yet! Thank Goodness.
166 Now

58 Days Till summer!

No pic's right now but, aren't the days left motivating enough?

Today...

Fri, Apr 23 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Breakfast
Sugar Free Rockstar C 480 20
Lunch
Beef, Flank - Separable Lean Only, Trimmed To 0" Fat, Choice, Cooked, Broiled B- 85 165
Cream, Sour, Cultured C- 36 77
Guacomole - Sandwich Fillings 30 60
Salad, Vegetable, Tossed - Without Dressing A 207 33
Taco Salad Shell C 15 71
Snacks
Kosher Dill Spears Pickles 56 10
Kosher Dill Spears Pickles 56 10
Total Calories Consumed 826
Total Carbs 32 (lil over)

59.5 Days Until Bikini Season!

Can you believe it is that close??? Ugh, I really hope I make it to my goals! I am dedicated right now, that is for sure.
Dedicated to these swimsuit's. Courtesy of www.victoriassecret.com

Did great!

Down another pound to 167, that is a 21 lb weight loss!

Here is what I did today...

Thu, Apr 22 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Whiskey - 40% Volume 53 118
Bud Light Beer 355 110
Breakfast
Coffee (Filter) 237 2
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Lunch
Lettuce, Cos Or Romaine - Raw A 28 5
Classic Yellow - Mustard 100 0
American Singles - Sandwich Cheese C- 19 60
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
Roma Tomatoes - Salad Bar 100 10
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 7 35
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 7 35
ground beef 258
Hot Chili Sauce - Sriracha 5 5
Dinner
Asparagus Stir Fry A 91 25
Shrimp 154
Total Calories Consumed 887
Total carbs 21

61 days left!!! This is all I have to say

Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here! Almost here!

BTW

I stayed the same weight today. Amazing when you are on your period!

Bad but, fun

Dinner was 2 Bud Lights, and mmmm it tasted so good and I was not really hungry. What? I was not hungry! What is happening with me?

Today's Intake

Wed, Apr 21 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Pork Rinds - Other Snacks 14 90
Whiskey - 40% Volume 50 111
Diet 360 0
Bud Light Beer 355 110
Bud Light Beer 355 110
Lunch
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 86 142
Snacks
Kosher Dill Spears Pickles 56 10
Kosher Dill Spears Pickles 56 10
ground beef 43
ground beef 43
ground beef 43
ground beef 43
ground beef 43
ground beef 43
Total Calories Consumed 873
Total Carbs 19.2

61.5 days left till summer!!!

I tried a pair of shorts on yesterday and they fit!!! They are these really cute Volcom vintagey looking shorts. I bought the cutest pair of sandals to reward myself for hitting my 1st goal. And I have lost 20 lbs as of today!(168) Feels so good, I would sound more ecstatic but I am on the dot today, and feel a little bloated. But, being able to lose weight and start is a miracle in itself. I am hoping that means when I am done I will drop a few pounds at once. Here's to hoping!

So, what's weird

is in my mind, I was thinking of eating 1200 calories today to kind of rev up my metabolism so I can continue to lose weight. I couldn't even get there, I was too full. I felt hungry for dinner and then I started to eat a grilled piece of chicken and did not even eat half. I ate a scoop of broccoli and that's it. I couldn't even eat anymore. So, I was thinking that maybe I am shrinking my stomach a little, if it does indeed shrink. The thought makes me smile... :)

Tue, Apr 20 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Premium Chunk Light Tuna In Water C+ 95 102
Real Mayonnaise 13 90
Dill Relish - Mt. Olive 15 0
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 21 90
Egg Salad - Kosher Specialties D 5 11
Lunch
Panera Bread Greek Salad 380
Dinner
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 4 20
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 86 142
Broccoli - Cooked, Boiled, Drained, Without Salt A 280 98
Egg Salad - Kosher Specialties D 46 104
Total Calories Consumed 1,037
Total Carb 35

Revamped Goals List

GW1: 169 Cute pair of flip-flops ACHIEVED! Cute sandals.
GW2: 158 New pair of sunglasses
GW3: 146 Cute Purse
GW4: 135 Victoria's Secret Swimsuit

T.K.O Totally kelly Osbourne

I think she look so cute!

To remind myself

of my goals- - -
GW1: 169 Cute pair of flip-flops ACHIEVED! Cute sandals.
GW2: 158 New pair of sunglasses
GW3: 146 New Beach Towel
GW4: 135 Victoria's Secret Swimsuit

Today's Damage

Mon, Apr 19 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Whiskey - 40% Volume 53 118
Breakfast
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 7 35
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Scrambled C+ 122 204
Lunch
shrimp 208
Sugar Snap Peas Stir Fry A 77 30
Dinner
Beef, Ground, 95% Lean Meat / 5% Fat, Crumbles - Cooked, Pan-browned B 179 346
American Singles - Sandwich Cheese C- 19 60
Cream, Sour, Cultured C- 14 30
Total Calories Consumed 1,030
Total Carbs 8.8

Ate well today. I hope it reflects tomorrow!!!

Is it too late to apologize

for not posting yesterday? Oh well, we spent the day together as a family and I ate like crap but, I did stay in my cal range. Went a bit higher on the carbs but, I stayed the same weight today so, I can't be too sad about that. 63 days left till summer!!! Here is my food log from yesterday
Sun, Apr 18 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Breakfast
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 32 160
Lunch
Grilled Chicken Wrap - Wraps C 247 380
Hot Dogs Cheese Dogs The Cheesiest D- 113 352
Sugar Free Rockstar C 480 20
Snacks
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 42 180
Total Calories Consumed 1,092
Total Carbs 49

65 days till the hot season!!!

Yes, only 65 days till summer! Can you hack it? This is the first year in a long time I plan on NOT being disappointed with myself!

Here is

today's food log
Sat, Apr 17 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Whiskey - 40% Volume 50 111
Whiskey - 40% Volume 25 56
Breakfast
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 32 160
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 19 81
Lunch
Texas Roadhouse Salad 410
Dinner
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 19 81
Total Calories Consumed 994
Total Carbs 18.9

I probably had too much alcohol but it's saturday and I still stayed within my range.
Kudos to me!

Hola

This morning I realised I forgot to post my food intake from yesterday, I tried to then and my computer was being very slow. I was too impatient to wait.

Fri, Apr 16 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Whiskey - Scotch, 40% Volume 55 122
Breakfast
Egg, Scrambled B- 75 159
Lunch
shrimp 154
Asparagus Stir Fry A 91 25
Butter - With Salt F 5 36
Dinner
salad 15
Salad Spritzers Caesar Delight with Olive Oil Vinaigrette Dressing 24 30
Fancy Shredded Fiesta Blend Cheese D 28 110
Chicken Broth 100 10
Beef, Top Loin - Separable Lean And Fat, Trimmed To 0" Fat, Select, Cooked, Broiled B 28 50
Snacks
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 21 90
Total Calories Consumed 836
Total Carb 16.1

Feeling

low today. I don't think it has anything to do with weight. I am a stay at home mom with my 2 yr old child, and he is the only person I have to talk to all day and my hubby works long hours. I have a few good friends but, they have lives... Ugh I am lonely

66 Days till Summer!!!

Okay, that is motivating!!!

Down to 170

1 more pound. I should be more excited than I am. I think its because I was hoping to be 169. But the good news is that if I do it tomorrow it is Saturday and I can go shopping for my first goal weight reward of new sandals! That excites me a little. It may also be that it is raining today.

Okay,

so I have a really good feeling about tomorrow, weight wise. I think I will be down at least 1 if not 2 lbs. I am going to get some exercise in tonight, playing with my son and doing some crunches. That is the plan anyway's. I will let you know if that was cultivated or not, lol.

Plus, watch Fringe (YAY)

Done!

Okay, I am done eating for the day. Here is a log of today's food. I did pretty darn good, 970 cal's and I rounded up on a few things so, I feel good about it.

Thu, Apr 15 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 15 15
Lunch
Bacon Ranch Salad with Grilled Chicken C+ 320 260
Newman's Own Ranch Dressing 30 86
Asparagus Stir Fry A 91 25
Butter - With Salt F 5 36
Shrimp 154
Dinner
Salad, Vegetable, Tossed - Without Dressing A 207 33
Salmon, Atlantic, Wild - Cooked, Dry Heat A- 85 155
Hidden Valley Ranch 2 tbsp 120
Snacks
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 19 81
Total Calories Consumed 970
Total Carbs 29

Oh Fab

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I love pics of girls in Jeans

Feeling good but, ...

I don't know. I am eating really good today and am still motivated but, I am at a point today where I contemplate how much I really have to lose. I was laying out in the sun in a bikini (privately) and I look down and just see all the pudge and get frustrated. But writing here helps. I know that I need to be excited about what I have done and not what I haven't done. I do need to focus on the positive, this pudge will eventually come off if I am diligent, and I am. I am going to continue with this for as long as it takes, even if it is longer than the timeline in my head.

Eating...

the same lunch as I had yesterday. Shrimp & Asparagus stir-fry. 200 calories because I sauteed in butter. I am determined that I am going to lose again. I know it. I am not going to eat past 6:30 tonight and I am staying around 900 cals. I cross my fingers-

I was right...

I was not down a pound this morning. I was exactly the same. I am a little bummed. I know I shouldn't be but, I am. I just love my happy mornings that are just mine. Then I start telling myself what I should and should not have done yesterday. Like eat 1000 cal's and not 1200. I really doubt that would have made much of a difference. Oh well, I know I am doing well and am even more motivated to keep going. Because if I did not lose today then maybe tomorrow will be amazing! So, since I did 1200 cal's yesterday, my goal is to keep it around 900 today and of course low carb. It is going to be a happy day no matter what!

I am feeling a little lonely tonight...

Why? I have no idea, my family is all asleep. I feel like I am all alone in my weight loss endeavor - even though I am doing this for me. If I talk to my friends about what I am doing they seem to get defensive because they might feel guilty or something? That is really not my intention. Then, if you tell people how you are doing it they say, that is not healthy or that is too much weight to lose, don't set your goals too high. The only person that really tells me that I can do it, is my hubby. He tells me I can do whatever I put my mind to. And he is right but, I think he gets sick of it being on my mind all the time and me talking about it so much. I need a weight loss friend for support and who I can support. I put an ad on craigslist (silly?) Maybe but, hopefully someone will want to chat or text or something.

My day

is finished. I ate pretty good today. I intentionally kept my calories around 1200 so that I can doop my body and make sure it does not go into starvation mode. 900 & under is considered starvation. I also can easily get caught up in eating less and less calories and I don't want my metabolism to slow. I just want it to work for me. So, we will see what the result is tomorrow. I do not have good vibes about it but, hopefully if I do not lose anymore tomorrow that the next few days could make up for it. I am not going to be sad. I can't get used to losing a pound a day anyways, it is not always going to happen, right?
Here is my food log:
Wed, Apr 14 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Whiskey - 40% Volume 50 111
Butter - With Salt F 10 72
Diet 1,080 0
Breakfast
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 45 45
Egg, Scrambled B- 141 299
Fancy Shredded Fiesta Blend Cheese D 22 86
Lunch
Shrimp 154
Asparagus Stir Fry A 91 25
Dinner
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 105 173
Chicken, Thigh, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B- 35 73
Cut Broccoli A 174 60
Fancy Shredded Fiesta Blend Cheese D 10 39
Snacks
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 21 90
Total Calories Consumed 1,233
Total Carbs 19.1

I had...

The most amazing lunch today. (I like seafood) I took 6 oz of frozen shrimp 154 cals and 1 cup of frozen asparagus stir-fry. 25 calories/4 carbs and I cooked them with a little butter and garlic/salt & pepper. It tasted so good! And only 179 calories total! I was excited about my lunch choice. I need more quality food with less carbs and calories. I am just going day by day and slowly I am making better choices.
It feels good

It paid off

Down another pound this morning. 171, I am almost out of the 170's which I am ecstatic about. Just takes time I guess but, as much as I have been losing I can't complain for sure. I am a little worried about the plateau that I am inevitably going to hit. I guess I will deal with that when it is here and just love what is happening right now.
Sounds weird but I have this goal of being down to my 1st goal of 169 by the time my friend gets back from her honeymoon at the end of this week. I do that, I make these weird little goals and dates and rules for myself.

Something to keep us going...

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Today's Intake

This is a little earlier than I usually do this but, I am DONE eating for today. I had a really good eating day and I have a feeling tomorrow morning will be great! The power of positive thinking maybe? I hope so, I could use another great day! Hope you are all having as much success as I am.

Tue, Apr 13 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Breakfast
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 32 160
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Lunch
Ground Pork - Fresh Pork 112 230
Fancy Shredded Colby and Monterey Jack Cheese C- 28 110
Dinner
GV Broccoli & Cauliflower 30
GV Broccoli & Cauliflower 30
GV Broccoli & Cauliflower 30
GV Broccoli & Cauliflower 15
Butter - With Salt F 14 100
Fancy Shredded Fiesta Blend Cheese D 28 110
Snacks
Sharp Cheddar Cheese Snack Sticks D 19 81
Original Pork Rinds D- 11 63
Total Calories =994
Total Carbs = 20

Afternoon hunger!

Ugh, this is the worst part of day for me with hunger. It is 3:53 here and I just ate some pork rinds. 80 calories and 0 carbs for 1 serving.

I am so excited, 69 sexy days till summer!

And... I am down another pound! 172, I can't believe it! I had a sneaking suspicion that I might not be but, my endurance is paying off! But, I have lost 16 lbs before and so now I feel like as of today I am really starting to lose weight because before I was kinda just getting back to square one. It was still great to lose that weight but now it really truly begins and I am only 3 lbs from my first goal weight!

Guess I am shallow...

I need to lose 28 lbs by June 20th. Then 10 more pounds to my ultimate goal 135. Then we will see from there. I know I can make it, I can visualize it all. I guess I am a little bit shallow as I am looking forward to people really noticing my weight loss. I am doing this for ME but, the praise is always a bonus. And I am looking forward to the day when I look in the mirror and am happy with what I see.
Then again, sometimes I do not like to hear people say anything because it sometimes makes me slack.

Almost forgot... 70 days till summer!

Yep, that's right we are dropping in digits as the warm motivation quickly approaches us. It is more like 69 days as today is almost over but, I need all the days left I can get! I have 28 pounds to lose by then. I will take more but I want to be 145 pounds max by the first day of summer.

How freaking adorable is Annalynne Mccord

I am so proud...

I ate extremely well today (by my standards) and I feel great! I also did 75 leg presses. 25 floor crunches, 50 machine crunches, 20 arm presses and a few more little exercises. That is better than I have done in a long time.

Here is my food log for today:
Mon, Apr 12 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30
Whiskey - 40% Volume 53 118
Chicken Broth 100 10
Chicken Broth 100 10
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Breakfast
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Scrambled C+ 92 154
Jimmy Dean Trim Breakfast Sausage Casing Link - Cooked Links F 68 212
Dinner
Frozen Japanese Blend A 247 100
Ground Pork - Fresh Pork 84 173
Snacks
Original Pork Rinds D- 14 80
Total Calories Consumed 985

I kept it under 1000 today. Trying to change it up and trick my metabolism.
We will see if it paid off tomorrow morning!

I am so excited and motivated!

I am only 4 lbs away from my 1st goal weight, 169! It feels really good. I am feeling good bout life and my choices today. I was looking in the mirror this morning and I turned around and my back fat is looking a lot smaller! Bikini, here I come. But, first at 169, I get to buy flip flops/sandals. (nice ones)

Drumroll please...

Down 1 more pound! Yes! I was not going to eat as much as I did yesterday but dang, I was hungry! Here is my food Log for yesterday.

Sun, Apr 11 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Michelob ULTRA 100 95
Breakfast
Coffee (Filter) 474 5
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 45 45
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Scrambled C+ 122 204
Pork, Cured, Bacon - Cooked, Broiled, Pan-fried Or Roasted D 32 173
Dinner
Broccoli - Cooked, Boiled, Drained, Without Salt A 312 109
Beef, Top Loin - Separable Lean Only, Trimmed To 1/4" Fat, All Grades, Cooked, Broiled B- 104 215
Snacks
Hot & Spicy BBQ Pork Rinds - Pork Rinds 20 106
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 86 142
Hot & Spicy BBQ Pork Rinds - Pork Rinds 17 90
Total Calories Consumed 1,564

Not Robsessed, But I do like him, especially this more rugged Robert Pattinson

Things to make us laugh

Best Button Ever!

I had 5 of these today!

Right now...

I am hungry hungry hungry!!! I layed out in the sun and enjoyed 4 low carb beers!!! Should not have had but, oh well. Gotta live a little right?

71 Days till summer!

And I have 39.4 more pounds to lose. Why does that sound better to me than 40 pounds to lose? It is motivating me. Weird how our minds work.

Loser

Yes, I am but, this is a good thing. But, I am only a little loser. I was down 0.5999999999 etc etc. I'll take it I guess. Hubby is home today working on our house. That is not always a good thing as I seem to eat more or bad things when he is around. He offered me a chocolate muffin and something for breakfast from Wendy's yesterday. I politely declined. I was very proud of myself, I am really trying to avoid fast food. I have been drinking a bit more coffee than I was but, it is very low in calories with no carbs. I am feeling pretty hungry this morning so I better go make breakfast or something. I do think that I can hold out for a while on my coffee. We will see.

My weight

188 187 186 185 184 183 182 181 180 179 178 177 176 175
174 173 172 171 170 169 168 167 166 165 164 163 162 161
160 159 158 157 156 155 154 153 152 151 150 149 148 147
146 145 144 143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 135 134 133

72 Days till summer!

I was down one more pound today, whoopee! I am not disappointed in that at all!
175, ugh. I will be happier when I am out of the 170's. I would even be happy with 169 right now. That is my 1st goal weight. Bring on the cute new flip flops!

73 Days until summer!

188 187 186 185 184 183 182 181 180 179 178 177 176 175
174 173 172 171 170 169 168 167 166 165 164 163 162 161
160 159 158 157 156 155 154 153 152 151 150 149 148 147
146 145 144 143 142 141 140 139 138 137 136 135 134 133

I think she is so adorable! (From photobucket.com)

Kate Hudson totally thinspires me!

Today

I was down a pound 176. I was hoping to be down 1 more pound than that but I can't be picky, at least I lost and did no stay the same or gain. I am finished eating for the day. I am having my coffee right now instead of this morning. Which worked out great because I had a bit of a sweet craving tonight and the coffee has filled that need.
Here is my food log for today.
Fri, Apr 09 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Sugar Free Rockstar C 480 20 cal
Lunch
Beef Sticks Original 51 200 cal
Original Pork Rinds D- 56 320 cal
Dinner
Beef, Ground, 85% Lean Meat / 15% Fat, Crumbles - Cooked, Pan-browned B- 149 381cal
Cheddar Cheese C 17 69 cal
Cream, Sour, Cultured C- 24 51 cal
Snacks
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 86 142 cal
Whiskey - 40% Volume 100 222 cal
Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid 30 30 cal
Coffee (Filter) 474 5 cal
SPLENDA No Calorie 3 0 cal
Total Calories Consumed 1,440

Well, (Deep Subject)

I am going to bed now and excited to weigh in the morning. I drank a huge bottle of water tonight! Looking forward to coffee in the morning as I bought more sugar free french vanilla coffee-mate.
Watched Fringe tonight, I love this show! Okay, okay I have loved Joshua Jackson thru The Mighty Ducks, Dawson's Creek "Pacey", Gossip, The Skulls, Lonestar State of Mind & now Fringe. But, really I think it is a great show. I actually really like Walter, he is so random. As am I at this very moment.
It's Goooooood Night

Food Today

Well, I went a little over what I had planned in my head for my calories today. But, I ate pretty darn healthy. (Except for whiskey) It says I had 27 grams of Carbs, that is a little higher than I like to have but still really low. Well, I hope this all reflects on the scale tomorrow. I also did a lil exercise today playing with my son so hopefully that may have cancelled out my extra calories. We will see, and I will let you know. The following is my day today.

Thu, Apr 08 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Whiskey - 40% Volume 50 111
Breakfast
Jimmy Dean Formed Breakfast Sausage Patty, Mild - Cooked Patties F 112 340
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Hard-boiled B 100 155
Lunch
Hot Dogs Wieners Bun Lenght D 57 170
Dinner
Salmon, Atlantic, Wild - Cooked, Dry Heat A- 113 206
Boneless, Skinless Chicken Breast, frozen - Meat/Poultry B 56 60
Tomatoes, Red, Ripe - Raw, Year Round Average A 91 16
Original Dressing - Hidden Valley 100 140
Classic Romaine - Packaged Salads, Fresh Discoveries A 368 65
Snacks
Original Pork Rinds - Pork Rinds 17 90
Sugar Free Rockstar C 240 10
Total Calories Consumed 1,363

74 days till summer!

If I want to lose 35 lbs by summer then I have to lose 3.18 lbs a week! That is a lot! I hope I can do it! That is .47 lbs per day, so almost a half a pound. I really need to get to working out. I was thinking of starting Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. 10 days on Level 1, 10 days on level 2 and 10 days on level 3. I need to work out bad!!!

Yay

I was down 3 lbs this morning, now weigh 177, which is nasty and I probably lost water weight but it was the boost I needed today. I layed out in the sun today while watching my boy play in his lil' pool. It was great, I am getting tan! I mean if I have to be this fat (for now) It may as well look better tan. I have eaten pretty well today. I am at 932 cal's except I have not had dinner yet. As of right now, I am not hungry. I hope it stays that way. If I do happen to get hungry, I am not going to stress and just keep it at or under 1200 today. All low carb though.

Today

I was down 1 pound. 176, but I was hoping for t least 2 lbs. But, I can't be picky! At least I did not stay the same or go up!! I have to look on the bright side. I have eaten pretty good so far today. I did a lot of running around, so that helped. I really only eat to excess when I am bored.

I am ...

a little happy with myself today. I did all low carb and kept it at approx 900 cal's.
I am drinking a big eco water bottle of h2o right now and am expecting to be a lil' lighter in the morning. I am expecting 2 lbs. Probably water weight but I need the boost right now.

I came up with the poem below in about 5 minutes... I kinda like it.

Poem

Oh, please, please hear my prayer
Though the lips are sinful of the humble sayer
Let foods not pass that are of little means
No bread, no sugar, no rice, no beans
Let water drown me from the inside out
may not my lip quiver as I see myself and pout
May the scale be spared my excess of weight
May this all happen soon and not late

This girl is sooooooo cute!

Love this...from Photbucket

My plan:

75 Days Until Summer!!! I weighed in at the disgusting weight of 180!!! Yes, that is me for right now. My goal is to be 135 pounds by summer! I have a feeling that is too much weight to lose by June 20, 2010 so I have set my weight loss plan to lose 35
pounds by then. I think with my low-carb plan (can lose up to 15 lbs in 2 weeks) and a few days of fasting in-between that I can do this! I have set some goals and rewards to motivate myself.
GW1: 169 Cute pair of flip-flops
GW2: 158 New pair of sunglasses
GW3: 146 New Beach Towel
GW4: 135 Victoria's Secret Swimsuit

This all gets me excited just thinking about it. I want all these things, but I am going to make myself work for them!

Yesterday on...

Dr Phil, they were having part 1 of :The FAT debate: It was very interesting. But, I really liked Kelly Osbourne. She has lost a lot of weight and is looking amazing. But, she has been overweight and called "fat" and understands the hurt. But, I have to agree that skinny people are hurt by words too. But, KO did say that she eats no carbs now unless it is a treat. I gravitated towards that right away because the best results I have had with weight-loss is when I have been on a low-carb plan. I get to eat, have energy and lose weight. I have started back today. Last time I did for 3 weeks and lost 16 lbs.

OMG

Why have I not been on here? I am not really sure busy, tired etc etc. Okay, I am going to try and be on here everyday now. I promise.