966 cals today

Oh, I broke the barrier and I was 159 this morning! I am pretty excited about that as I have not seen the 150's in a long long time. I am cooking up my masses of bacon tonight. 5 lbs! I keep it handy in the fridge and then I can just heat up in 20 seconds. Yeah, I am a bacon fiend.

Hoooooray!

I am down 2 lbs to 160! I can't believe it, I am so happy!!! I am just a hair from the 150's!!!!! Sorry to really rant but I am just super psyched. Makes me want to keep up with my workout too!

Ate

really well today. You know what was crazy, is I decided to weigh in the middle of the day and it was 161, less than the morning. I am hoping that number will ring tue tomorrow. And...... drum roll..... I worked out today! Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. My goal is to do it for 30 days, that will bring me to June 13th and just a week away from my goal date. I know I can't just rest on my diet for forever, then I will be thinner and flabby. I wanna be strong and more fit. I want my lil' baby pooch to go away! I am very proud of myself for working out, I hate it but I know I have t change my way of life and that includes getting moving! I can do it!

OMG

I have not posted in soooo long. I am sorry, I have had my mother-in-law at my house for a week. My main computer is in the guest room and she was in here laying down a lot so, I did not have a chance to really get on the computer. But, she is back at her other kids house. It may sound like a bad time but, her and I get along great. So, in the meantime I have lost 26 lbs all together and am down to 162. Only 4 more pounds till my next goal and until I have lost 30 lbs! Seems amazing that I have even come this far and I can tell you that I NEVER want to go back through this struggle again, it can be hard. So, before I was sick of seeing my weight in the 170's well, now I am good and ready to be rid of the 160's once and for all. I am looking forward to the 150's. What has really suprised me is in the past I always seem to sabotage my weight loss. I have not been doing this and have been very consistent. I am proud of myself.

5/10/2010 FOOD LOG

Mon, May 10 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Rockstar Recovery 20
Diet Wild Cherry 360 0
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 34 56
Original Iced Tea Unsweetened 448 0
Breakfast
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 122 192
Thick Sliced Bacon - Bacon D 19 101
Lunch
Classic Iceberg Salad - Packaged Salads, Fresh Favorites A 198 35
Tomatoes, Red, Ripe - Raw, Year Round Average A 27 5
Salmon 90
Traditional Feta Crumbled D+ 37 98
Ranch Dressing C- 15 77
Dinner
Chicken, Breast, Meat Only - Cooked, Roasted B 172 284
cauliflower & broccoli 30
Total Calories Consumed 987
Total Carbs 19.1

Aaaaaaaaah!

My go-to website for support and info is not updating!!!! prettythin.com
I am feeling a little lost without it.

Life is good today

I think it is. It feels good. I think I am gonna chill out today and play with my boy and watch movies. It is drizzly out and it is a stay at home and feel snuggly day. Still gonna eat good though!

I ate

really good yesterday (656 cals) and today and I was back down to 166 this morning!!! I was happy about that and was on kind of a high from it all day!

5/9/10 FOOD LOG

Sun, May 09 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Breakfast
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 61 96
Thick Sliced Bacon - Bacon D 15 80
Lunch
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Hard-boiled B 50 78
Classic Iceberg Salad - Packaged Salads, Fresh Favorites A 283 50
Buttermilk Ranch - Original Dressings & Dips 15 60
Dinner
Broccoli and Cauliflower 100
Chicken Breast Fillets Boneless Skinless - with Rib Meat Poultry C+ 134 144
Snacks
Tuna, Light, Canned In Water - Without Salt, Drained Solids B+ 92 107
Real Mayonnaise 13 90
Dill Relish - Heinz 15 0
Total Calories Consumed 804
Total Carbs 24

Yesterday...

I was doing pretty fab, I had only had 519 calories all day! Then came a dinner party. I knew it was happening but we had ribs (I smoked them all day) which are low carb and we were having salad and I was going to avoid the bread and maybe have a few baked beans. Well, I had about a half a rack of ribs, beans, bread, salad and my friend brought over this thing called oooey gooey cake, I had 2 pieces! Ugh, I am so weak sometimes!!! So here I am 2 lbs heavier, bloated and irritated.
Today!.... It is strictly 500 calories, low carb. I have to get back on track! I have been off course for about a week and it has cost me 9 lbs!!! Crazyness!!

5/7/10 FOOD LOG

Fri, May 07 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Breakfast
Thick Sliced Bacon - Bacon D 23 123
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 61 96
Egg, Whole - Cooked, Omelet B- 61 96
Lunch
Lettuce, Cos Or Romaine - Raw A 10 2
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
Cooked Ham - Bryan 28 40
American Singles - Sandwich Cheese C- 19 60
Tomatoes, Red, Ripe - Raw, June Thru October Average A 30 6
Dinner
Baby Back Ribs - Half Rack 167 433
Garlic Slices Bread 108 419
Classic Iceberg Salad - Packaged Salads, Fresh Favorites A 142 25
Hidden Valley The Original Ranch Dressing (1) - Salads & More 57 200
Cake, Yellow, Commercially Prepared - With Vanilla Frosting C- 128 477
Original Baked Beans - Baked Beans B 130 140
Snacks
Chicken Nuggets Bagged - Fully Cooked Chicken Products 18 55
Total Calories Consumed 2,212
Total Carbs 219

Feel poopy today...

Have a sore throat and sinus congestion. And it's not that bad but, you know how you just feel like heck when you're like that? Maybe I will not feel like eating today, here's to hoping!

Love this, gives me hope!

Tomorrow's plan

Well, since I have gone off the low-carb the last few days and have been eating normal, my appetite has been voracious and my cravings intense. I need to get back to the basics I was doing low-carb/low-cal so I can function and be in control again.

Really thought

that I had screwed up today. I mean I did a little, I wanted my max to be 1000 calories but, I did 1254. But, I thought I was at maybe 2000+ calories so I feel better about that part.

5/6/10 FOOD LOG

Thu, May 06 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Bud Light Beer 177 55
Breakfast
Iced Coffee with Sugar Free Vanilla Syrup B- 85 85
Lunch
Pork, Cured, Bacon - Cooked, Broiled, Pan-fried Or Roasted D 19 103
Tomatoes, Red, Ripe - Raw, Year Round Average A 27 5
Lettuce, Iceberg - (Includes Crisphead Types), Raw A 8 1
Bread, White, Commercially Prepared - (Includes Soft Bread Crumbs) A- 50 133
Caesar Salad - Salads 448 160
Thin Crinkle Fries - 5/16" C+ 113 160
Chicken Strips - Chicken Strips D+ 53 167
Sweet Potato - Julienne Fries B+ 20 35
Snacks
Cookies C+ 28 120
Whole Milk B+ 288 180
Chewy Chocolate Chip Granola Bars - Sunbelt D+ 11 51
Total Calories Consumed 1,254

Raaaaaar!

Yesterday, I started out wonderful! Some All Bran Strawberry Medley with just a lil milk and fresh strawberries on top. Then I go mow my sis-in-law's yard (still going good) Then she invites me to lunch, that was my downfall! I had a taco salad, not bad right? But, I ate the shell, then I had chips & salsa, chips & white queso and maragarita's (had a pitcher) I went home and decided to have a beer (no idea why) All that and I was stuffed. After the beer I felt like crap, not from drinking but a sore throat, stuffy nose and horrific headache. I have no idea if any of it had to do with eating or drinking. All I know is that today I feel like I have a cold and according to the scale this morning, gained 3 lbs. It is my own fault! Why did I have to eat so much and why did I drink? I get so freaking irritated at myself! But, what can I do now? Wallow that I am fat and weak and just gain more??? No, it is a new beginning this morning and I am making it a goal not to let myself down today. Okay, I just needed to get all that out! Thank you.
Today = 500 to 1000 cals max!

Feeling

fat, frustrated, hungry, defeated, lame, and ... um fat!!!

Morning all

Well, yesterday I ate 1585 calories, way over what I wanted to eat. But, I quit eating for the day around 3:30 and I did not gain a pound! So, that was cool, at least I do not have to deal with working on getting that back off on top of what I have left to lose.

I am a loser

Yes, another day is upon me and I feel like a loser again. Not the kind that is the loser of weight, I have no broblem being that kind of loser. The loser I am talking about is someone who cannot control their mouth. Not speech but, the consumption of all the vile nonsense that makes her the biggest gainer. I don't know why this fight between my mind and my mouth has to go on! Can't we all just get along? Can't my mind stop taking over and shmoozing my mouth into thinking that this is okay? A few chips here and a couple cookies here. Yeah, they are enemies and my body is the result of their bitter feud. I am like the child caught in the middle. Only my body and myself suffer.

Aaaaaah!

Last night I was doing wonderful, had 738 cals all day and then I made dinner for my hubby when he came home from work around 8:30 pm. I made whole wheat pasta with vodka sauce, and sourdough bread. It sounded so good, so I had a little and that just made me hungrier so I had a little more. I also had a little sourdough bread with butter. All together I had around 1639 calories! I was in that "I wanna lose weight but, I also want to feel like I can live a normal life and have dinner with my hubby" Well, newsflash! Nothing when it comes to food or how I feel when I eat is normal. I felt super guilty last night and my belly felt huge! Today I think I will be up in weight and so now I am really frustrated! But, what can I do now? Well, I can fall off the wagon, keep eating like hell and get even bigger or I can get right back on to my plan of 500 to 1000 calories and make today a better day! I think the latter sounds much more brilliant, why keep the pain going? Nip it in the bud and be strong and change damnit! Why am I so lame that I have to give into spaghetti? Last time I looked it was not stronger than me! Today... no beer, lots of water, and no sweets. Yeah, good plan

2-Day

my goal was 750 calories. I have done well, 738. That is my day complete! I have to tell myself that because I want to say hopefully but, if I say that then there is room for cheating. It is exactly 6:30 an that is my cut-off. It is water and calorie-free drinks the rest of the night! Yes I can!!!

5/3/10 FOOD LOG

Mon, May 03 2010 Day Complete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Zero Carb Rockstar C+ 240 10
Bud Light Beer 355 110
Drink Mix Sugar Free Iced Tea With Peach 1 0
Breakfast
Bananas A 68 61
Lunch
Tortilla Chips - Scoops C 28 140
Picante Hot Sauce - Pace F 30 10
Dinner
shrimp 80
Asparagus Stir Fry A 91 25
Cut Broccoli A 87 30
Snacks
Peanut Chocolate Chip B- 30 140
Strawberries A 24 8
Lightly Salted Rice Cakes 18 70
Lightly Salted Rice Cakes 9 35
Ginger snap 20
Total Calories Consumed 738

As you can see...

today was not the best day on eating but, also not my worst. No more 3,000+ calorie days, in fact the rest of this week I am keeping it above 500 but below 1000. Sounds like a good range to me. Geez, what would I do without all these little rules for myself. Get bored and defeated, I think.

5/2/10 FOOD LOG

Sun, May 02 2010Day Incomplete: View Analysis
Grade Grams Cals
Sugar Free Rockstar C 480 20
Breakfast
Zesta Whole Grain Wheat Saltine Crackers B- 18 72
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 42 210
Belgian Waffle Mix B 78 219
Dinner
Mission Foods, Mission Flour Tortillas, Soft Taco, 8 Inch C- 77 221
Beef, Ground, 95% Lean Meat / 5% Fat, Crumbles - Cooked, Pan-browned B 85 164
Tillamook Cheddar D+ 56 240
Sour Cream B 30 50
Tomato Roma - 3 med. Raw A 186 40
Hot Chili Sauce - Sriracha 5 5
Snacks
Original Corn Chips C- 9 51
Zingers Raspberry D 43 162
Boulevard wheat 155
Kirkland, Maple Bacon 7 35
Total Calories Consumed 1,645
Total Carbs 191

Last night was weird

I made my hubby and myself a long island iced tea. I got sick! I can't believe it made me sick, never has before! Well, previously I indulged in some tortilla chips and guac, needless to say I got sick and puked all of that up. This morning I was back down to 166!!! I was amazed and thrilled! Weird day, I can tell you that. Today, I am in the mood to eat! I am going to try and not go over 1200 calories. That is my plan anyways. I am at 890 right now without having dinner. I am pretty sure I can do it if I do not get crazy and just snack a lot.