Okay...

so this past weekend was a bust when it came to eating. I did great on Friday and 1/2 of Saturday, then I had a friend come over and bring beer (no biggie) then she wanted to go eat (which did sound good) I did not have a an intention of eating very badly but a Margarita sounded sooooo good. I got one of those, and then I was like "what the heck, I want to live a little" I had a sample tray of Mozzarella sticks, boneless buffalo wings, criss cut fries, and chicken quesadilla's. I shared them with my child but, I went home and tried to add up all my calories and carbs and I stopped at 2600 calories and 260 carbs! Can you believe that? I was mortified to see that many cal's & carbs in print. Um, eating like that is not living!!! I am bloated and my stomach hurts. My friend (whom is very overweight) said "oh, just reward yourself with this", I said "I don't reward myself with food"
So, I have felt guilty, because I also ate badly the next day with my husband. I only ate once, but it was a lot of carbs. But, I am back today! I am not weighing myself till Wednesday. I am feeling frustrated at myself and I think if I weigh I will get even more down at myself right now, and it may work the wrong way for me. I don't want to give up! And, not weighing in for the next couple days makes me feel not as obsessed with weighing as I was feeling. So, I cross my fingers for Wednesday.