Monday, April 18, 2011
Why, oh why
do I have to be a complete failure? 158 this morning, ick, ick, ick! On top of that I am very late with my period (I call it on the dot) wouldn't that be great to get pregnant at this weight & then have to get really huge! I am 99% sure that I am not but, these thoughts cross my mind. On top of all of this, I feel very alone even with my husband and it is wreaking havoc on my esteem & I feel depressed which in turn does not help my eating plan. I am hating life right now!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Sorry
to disappoint everyone including myself. I am a disgusting fat-ass and was 155 this morning & today I have eaten horrible!!! I hate it, myself & my life! The only thing keeping me going is my gorgeous 3 yr old son! Help, I am so lonely & depressed that I can't seem to function well right now.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
It's amazing how
I can go from 156 to 149 in 2 days!!! I am very excited and motivated by it!!! I have a special ocassion on Sunday evening & I want to be as small as I can by then. Maybe 145 or below? We will see!!!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
So
I would love to tell you that I have just been kicking ass on my eating plan and have lost "x" about of lbs but, I can't. I have been eating for shit and am feeling the effects. I am 156 this morning, I have a headache, I am bloated & do not feel very well. Ugh, why am I such a loser right now? Last year around this time, I was obsessed & nothing was stopping me! I have got to find my motivation again. Fitting in to everything & hearing "you are so skinny" gets old for me. I need something motivating that is not from an outside source, I think.
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