Eaten

really great today (by my standards) 902 cal's & 7 carbs.

Today

I am down to 148, yes!!! I am happy about this, pretty happy. Only 20-23 more lbs to go! But, I have lost 40 lbs all together!

Another

great day of eating!

Total Calories 854

Carbohydrates 15.4 g

Protein 16.4 g

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I need some thinspo,

Amazing!!!

Went to bed weighing 155 and woke up 150! I am very excited about that because I was thinking 153, maybe 152 but, 150? I wish losing weight was always as easy as 5lbs at a time but, it has given me the boost that I need. I have a convention to go to the first weekend in June and I have decided on a goal of 125-128 by June 3rd. I think that is a realistic goal. That is 66 days to lose 23-25 lbs. That is 9 weeks & 2.5 lbs per week! I can totally do this! I am very excited right now!!! This is going to be a great morning!

Tonight

I am feeling very proud of myself! I ate wonderfully today & have not given in, even though I had a self-defeating attitude this morning. I overcame it & ate great anyways. That is a big, big deal for me. I am back on here and that is a huge motivator too! I got my new Victoria's Secret Catalog today and that reaffirmed my desire for a great, skinny body! Yay VS, love it!

FOOD FOR TODAY

THINK I DID PRETTY GREAT, GOING FROM PIGGING OUT TO...

Day's Total
Cal Grams Grade
753 845 B-

Breakfast
30 734

Coffee (Filter)

7 712 -

Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid

23 23 -

Lunch
230 46

Egg, Whole - Cooked, Fried

90 46 B-

Cheese Dog

140 -

Snack
250 0

Cheese Dog

140 0 -

Pepper Cheese Curd

110 -

Other


Whiskey - 40% Volume

111 50 -

Yerba Mate 1 Tea Bag

5 -

Yerba Mate 1 Tea Bag

3 0 -

Sugar Free French Vanilla - Liquid

15 15 -

Protein Powder 1 scoop

110 -

Have Not

written in a month and a half? It does not seem like it has been that long at all! I am sorry I have not been on. I am not sure what I have been doing truthfully. Except obsessing & still eating like crap! I am 155 today, that is 20 lbs gained! This is not okay! I need someone to tell me it's not okay!!! Everyone around me says things like "it's okay, you look good, I can't tell, maybe you are not meant to be 135" What, are you kidding me? Not only am I meant to be 135, I am meant to be 125 or whatever weight makes me happy. I am not happy in the 150's, so how can I be meant to be unhappy? So, with that aside... I am not, I am meant to be happy & skinny... I know I am! So, as of today I make the decision to get back on my low-carb plan (because it is the only one I can handle) and I am going to be strict again!