Doing better

today! Okay, so I have been doing my low-carb deal since Monday and I have lost 6 lbs so far. That makes me happy

I am back!

Okay, Okay really. I am back with a vengeance! First I am going to start by saying that I weigh 197 today. I have been that weight for a while. It totally sucks but, in the wintertime I get really down and bored and this winter I have done nothing but eat drink and be miserable. I get the winter blues really bad. But, it is totally spring and has been for a month. It has taken me a bit longer than usual to get out of my funk. But, I am feeling motivated and happier! Okay, so how do I plan on losing this disgusting weight? Well, to start I am going to jumpstart this weight loss with BOB HARPERS Jumpstart To Skinny Plan. I bought the book and I love it! Well, I love Bob anyways and he has great recipes and a plan to lose 20 lbs in 3 weeks. I have an event at the end of May and I would like to be at least 20 lbs down. And the most amazing part? On the plan ladies only eat 800 cal's a day! That's right! I am really excited, that there is a real plan under 1000 cal's! Well, I am going to track my success here and keep sane by venting here. I will post a pic of my 197 lb body later. It helps me to see how bad it all really looks. I am sorry, you may have to turn away or it may motivate you as well!

Here again

Okay, Okay So, I have not been here in a long time and my life has slowly but surely been going to shit. I am 200 lbs this morning! I have been up to 203! I know, very disgusting. I changed the name of this blog because I am a wannarexic. I am, I want to starve and be skinny but, I do not have the mental disease that so many people deal with. I know that I am not anorexic. I do like to eat food, obviously. I am not here to downplay what anorexics go through or have to deal with. I do however have respect for how strong they are in holding out and getting to where they want to be. I personally can only go like this for very small periods of time. And yes, I do wish that I could have their fortitude. I really do not care if people come on here and hate on some stuff. "You have to get more haters" - Katt Williams I am a grown a** woman and do not care for labels or class distinctions amongst a society of people under a topic of such low importance (compared to the magnitude of problems in the world) as who has the worst time with an eating disorder.