Down, down

to 148 this morning. Not quite the jump in weight-loss I was hoping for but, it is still in the right direction. I am going to keep chugging along... 20 more lbs, I can do it!

Well, I always

Feel really happy when I finally do get out of the 150's even if it is 149. This is usually the point where I jinx & sabotage myself. Not this time, I am rearing to go and more determined than ever.

THIS USED TO BE ME AT 135

GOING TO USE THIS AS MY BEFORE PIC

Myself Revealed, Me Today 157 lbs

Have to

keep doing my low carb routine! I went completely off this weekend & the scale shows a 7 lb gain! 7 lbs, can you believe that? I am sure much of it is water weight & I am close to my period but, dang still not what you want to see on the scale. I am still determined to stick to my goals besides becoming self-defeating. "You may have to fight a battle more than once before you win it" I keep this in my head to remind myself to "NEVER GIVE UP"

Been

sucking this weekend! Flat out, I am sick of dieting right now. Not sure how to fix or make it better. I also do not want to gain weight back, what do I do?

I was soooo confused

yesterday, I want so much to be skinny! So, so very much & I have been working on it all week! Then yesterday I totally binge after a great morning of eating good. Then I decided to have a drink. Then that made me really hungry (as I am close to my period) Then I started baking my kiddo some cookies and I was deciding in my head that this is what I should be, not worrying about my weight & baking my kid cookies & making dinner that we eat at the table every night. I can't do it all!!! So I ate and drank and ate and drank some more. Ended up eating pizza for dinner & I felt horrible and wanted to puke! Today it shows I have gained 4 lbs, ugh!!! I am such and idiot loser! But, I am not stopping nor giving up. I am going to get right back on, stick with what I know best(low-carb) and keep fighting the good fight. Of course that was after I ate 2 cookies & some grapes. But, it is morning... all is not lost. I will eat light the rest of the day!

I love skinny girls in jeans/jean shorts (my fav's)

I did

eat really good today. I have to say, not as good as the last two days but, that was on purpose. Today, I ate 1100 cal's and 16 carbs. That was to intentionally bump up my metabo so when I do go low the next few days my body will not feel like it is starving & I have to change things up for my own personal sanity. I almost just ate a minute ago & it is 8:06 pm, well I do not eat after 6:30. But, I did not do it! I had some green tea instead. I looked ate my fave thinspo http://thinspiration-pictures.blogspot.com and moved on. I hope I can do this everyday because I know I am pms-ing right now. But, the night is not done, but I think I am over my weak point. I actually took out my low-carb lasagna (which is normally a good thing in my open hours of eating) had the lid off & the fork in my hand and I said NO! I am so proud right now. I mean, it's just food and it will be there tomorrow, right?

Before & After

These are all from www.thinspiration-pictures.blogspot.com It is an amazing blog! My new drug of choice!

Oh hey

I kinda forgot to update you on me. I ate amazing Monday, lost 5 lbs overnight (water weight) Ate really great yesterday & today weighed 149. At least I am out of the 150's! I have motivated myself again and am getting my obsession back, which is good because I can't do it without it. My new goal is 125 lbs. I am going to do this & me amazing! I will post some pics of me along the way. Right now, before & after pics of other girls who have done it are really keeping me going! I was so hungry last night, but did not give in, just drank water.

I suck

I suck, I am shit! I hate myself! 157 this morning! I have not been eating well, not been exercising & been drinking too much! I cannot let this happen! Help!!!