Been

sucking this weekend! Flat out, I am sick of dieting right now. Not sure how to fix or make it better. I also do not want to gain weight back, what do I do?

I was soooo confused

yesterday, I want so much to be skinny! So, so very much & I have been working on it all week! Then yesterday I totally binge after a great morning of eating good. Then I decided to have a drink. Then that made me really hungry (as I am close to my period) Then I started baking my kiddo some cookies and I was deciding in my head that this is what I should be, not worrying about my weight & baking my kid cookies & making dinner that we eat at the table every night. I can't do it all!!! So I ate and drank and ate and drank some more. Ended up eating pizza for dinner & I felt horrible and wanted to puke! Today it shows I have gained 4 lbs, ugh!!! I am such and idiot loser! But, I am not stopping nor giving up. I am going to get right back on, stick with what I know best(low-carb) and keep fighting the good fight. Of course that was after I ate 2 cookies & some grapes. But, it is morning... all is not lost. I will eat light the rest of the day!

Having A Crisis

Because I am scared that I am not worried that I weigh 153 today! It sucks but, it is not bothering me as much as I think it should. The fact that it is not more of a crisis, is a huge concern for me. What is the problem? Where has my motivation gone? Where is my Mojo?

Good or Bad news first?

Bad new is, I have been eating like a freak for 2 days, I am up to 150, probably more in the morning & I am fat!!! The good news? Oh, I forgot, there is no good news.