Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Hello
Hi, sorry I have not been on in a bit. I have been very down. So first I was on a low carb diet for approx 2 weeks and lost 16 lbs. Well, almost 2 weeks later and I have gained all back but 5. Yep, loser as usual. Okay that is the only negative thing that I am going to say about myself today, as far as you know in this blog, lol. But I have a wedding to be in, in approx 40 days and I have to look better! My friend and I are doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred and I am thinking of attempting "The Master Cleanse" again. I want to prove that I can do it!! Even though I have not thoroughly convinced myself that I can. Once I start to not have food, I start telling myself that "this is not normal" that people were "made to eat" and that I "deserve to eat". Yep, I psyche myself out and eat again only to be very irritated at failing my own self. But, that does not discourage me to try, try again. Okay, looking I have exactly 40 days till my BF wedding! I have to lose some weight!