Have Not

written in a month and a half? It does not seem like it has been that long at all! I am sorry I have not been on. I am not sure what I have been doing truthfully. Except obsessing & still eating like crap! I am 155 today, that is 20 lbs gained! This is not okay! I need someone to tell me it's not okay!!! Everyone around me says things like "it's okay, you look good, I can't tell, maybe you are not meant to be 135" What, are you kidding me? Not only am I meant to be 135, I am meant to be 125 or whatever weight makes me happy. I am not happy in the 150's, so how can I be meant to be unhappy? So, with that aside... I am not, I am meant to be happy & skinny... I know I am! So, as of today I make the decision to get back on my low-carb plan (because it is the only one I can handle) and I am going to be strict again!