Here again

Okay, Okay So, I have not been here in a long time and my life has slowly but surely been going to shit. I am 200 lbs this morning! I have been up to 203! I know, very disgusting. I changed the name of this blog because I am a wannarexic. I am, I want to starve and be skinny but, I do not have the mental disease that so many people deal with. I know that I am not anorexic. I do like to eat food, obviously. I am not here to downplay what anorexics go through or have to deal with. I do however have respect for how strong they are in holding out and getting to where they want to be. I personally can only go like this for very small periods of time. And yes, I do wish that I could have their fortitude. I really do not care if people come on here and hate on some stuff. "You have to get more haters" - Katt Williams I am a grown a** woman and do not care for labels or class distinctions amongst a society of people under a topic of such low importance (compared to the magnitude of problems in the world) as who has the worst time with an eating disorder.

Yes!

This day is too much!

I am feeling like a large, crazy, alcoholic house! So broken down and no one wants to live in it. They remember that it used to be beautiful.